Prayerful Perspective...

Sometimes when our hearts are broken it is hard to gain thoughtful perspective especially when it comes to our children. Although Ashley has been my child for a short period of time in the grand scheme of things she is still in fact MY child. So what makes a Mother? Is it blood or custody, I say no! I am Ashleys Mother because I love her, because I care deeply for her well being, because every single day I pray for her happiness, because she calls me Mommy, because I choose to be. I can only have faith that the skills she may have leaned while in my care will carry her through her hard times. A good Mother gives her child the strengh to face challenges. I always knew the time would come when she would want to face the difficulties between her and her mother. For me I guess it just came to soon. I wanted her for longer. I wanted to share in her triumphs and her trials. I wanted to give her advice about boys and threaten the ones who come over. But, as hard as this is, it is the right thing for Ashley to face what she ran away from. Though her leaving hurts my heart, I know she must repair things with her Bio Mom. Repair is the hard thing to do, repair is the healthy thing to do. I'm proud of my Ashley for her choices. A good Mother lets her childen go, to learn and love and grow in hopes that one day they will come back.

I will miss you my Ashley.

I hope you come back to me one day.